I've been changing the date of my post. don't ask me why! I have been so busy since school start. Projects, tutorial that have kick start from the moment i step into my lecture hall. school life is ok. i still miss my 96521354802 friends i had make in secondary school&jc. i used to know every single person in my cohort. now, i feel like i'm a stranger in the cohort.

I made some friends. maybe acquaintance? i've been giving many people my number. do not know whether they will remember who I am by the end of the day. Yes, i was friendly&talk to people. breaking the barrier wall i had.. &i found two now friends that I will meet every tuesday, wednesday and Friday. bliss. but the projects on hand is the one that will make me cry. i have 2 essays to write. 2 presentation to prepare for. 1 mega project to plan for. &this are all my education module. so, i have to ACE this module to be a good teacher. I'm starting to miss zul, neni&amirah who always been there for me during my pw days...

So, i went to meet my two girlfriends: shakina&nurul after my lesson on friday. finally, familiar faces... I thought my lesson end at 630pm but apparently it end at 730pm. So, they waited for me at JP. window shop. I rush to LJS to find them. &yes, i do miss them soo much. our last meeting was sentosa. it seems nice a gathering. sitting down&eating. laughing at all those stupid jokes, antics.


us. shak.nurul.me.


mum was calling me.


our meal.

after eating, we went to lepak. i know it is already late. but i cant resist the temptation to sit down&have fun with these girls!(: it has been a long long while since i really lepak with my friends. we cam-whore&talk about various topics ranging from our ex-es, crush-es, our silly actions during secondary school. i kept on laughing reminiscing all these moments... haha(:


us(:


back to school):

headed home at 11pm after nurul treat us to ice-cream!(: haha. thanks for that wonderful let-down session we had!<3 love it all.

meet up again!(:

Happy birthday Singapore(:

blogger is not letting me update my blog.. let's wait for it! I want to upload picture(:

This was supposed to be a happy day. Boyfriend came back from Brunei safe&sound. I met him the day before for awhile only after my tuition for him to pass me something before he have to rush home again): &i so want to watch the fireworks with you, boyfriend.

i was disappointed..

So, i decided to went out with one of my friend(: luckily for him, i went out that day&not get trapped at home. We decided to go out&shop around!(: i went to a flea market at art museum. we had fun! right?(: haha..


dress-up for the day(:


she aso going the celebration(:


flea market(:


one of the art piece!


wishing it was you..


i was there(:


shopping time! i loveeee this!

waiting for him to change..


we walk all the way to ION just to check out the burger king(:

treat me please(:


&i bought this. love the effect(: haha..


something that boyfriend bought for me to accompany me when i study(:


packing up for school tomorrow!(:


i wish you were the one.. who was there.. but you were not. i'm glad that you, my friend, accompany me and cheered up my day(: i seriously had fun that day. next time, let's do it again! you. me. our secret. haha(: jangan bocohkan rahsia!

&school is starting tomorrow! how will i get about it? i wish i have the strength and motivation. For once, i dont feel like going school. i wish we dont have to keep on changing school. i'm scared to make new friends):

A sudden swarm of sadness overcome me. I dunno what I’m feeling now.. I just feel like the tears that flows down is not doing its justice.. I miss you my dear.. but I could only feel that you are slipping away from my fingers slowly.. for who I am now.. all my smiles seems mask with deception.. I cant believe I’m feeling this way again.. I cant believe I would feel so lost now… eventhough I’m right there with you…

One week has gone by… yes, my camp had ended on Sunday afternoon. Coming home feeling lethargic& such. The lack of sleep drains my every muscle, since you have to walk up&down the hills in NTU. Does this mean that I have to keep fit for now? The camp was not at all fun. I was not making good friends with the rest. Think that I’m too quiet for once. For my own good.. my group was not the enthusiastic kind.. not the kind in JJ where my group will always be the loudest&can be heard miles down.. I just feel not right being there.. however, I did have my fun joking around. Not much pictures was taken.. here it goes. Overall, the rating of the camp 2/5. I seriously missed jj camps..


my group(:


after bathing..


after our performance..


the campers..


camwhore with the girls. hehe..


waiting for our bus..

the rest of the week was spent on tuition. yeah. that's how boring my life is. however, on friday, went back to BLSS to take Friends of Boon Lay award. I was late!=p was supposed to wake wl up at 7am. but i woke up at 720am&call him instead. he asked me to go hurry up. haha.. then he call me again to see that i've really woke up. haha(: quickly get ready! hehe.. then asked mum to send to pm. went to take the award with so much shyness. haha..


i managed to dress up a bit=p


the plaque..

after which, we went for the charity bazaar. ms chua gave us free coupons!(: went to buy some stuff. then off we went.. the guys wanted to venture out safra@jurong. since i have not been there also, i followed. yeah.. nobody was at home also!): went to safra. walked around. ah poh decide to go to KBox. omg. that's how all the fun started! hehe.. we spent 4hrs in there paying 11bucks each. they give us free lunch aso. but i didnt eat coz nt halal. but the singing part was so shiok! ah poh sang hokkien song. jh sang chinese song. me sang malay&eng song with wl. fun fun. hehe..


deciding where to go..


&here we are!


deciding what to eat..


they eat&i sang to my heart content..


partner for the day(:

that outing seriously cheer me up. but i went back to a state of depression as soon i reach my empty home..


I don’t know myself now. Everyday leading this mundane lifestyle. Scared. Fear. Loneliness. You are not there to understand no more. Flashback of memories occur. Stirring up feelings that I force myself to ignore. Coz I just missed you, a simple reason that seems too vague.

i'm entering an unfamiliar surrounding yet again.. no one being there with me. friends who are not there to give me the support&encouragement. somehow. it seems to scary. i cant describe my feelings into words. hold my hand. dont let go.. bring me thru this journey with you..

can you please give me back my happiness? coz i miss it. i miss you..

i'm going off for camp in a few hours. the malay NTU/NIE camp. hope things turn out well for me(: let me have a good time again. for the past few days, almost everyone in my family was down with fever, cough&flu. I hve no entertainment. cant ask mum to go out to JP to shop around. cant ask hanis to play with me. cant ask abg to send me gift for facebook games): i was depressed with only the com as my friend who wont even talk to me. &i cant go out coz i have to take care of the house with everyone fainting every moment.

boyfriend is also busy with his camp stuffs. he is going to brunei tomorrow): shessh. nobody to hear my rants. i have not talk to him for two days now. waiting for him to finish up his things makes me sleepy. &he is all tired from his work that he would just sleep the moment he hit the bed. but on tuesday, he came by my house during his nights out to pass me his story book. he cabbed down to pass it to me.

thanks for that brief moment,
that brief touch,
that brief glimpse of you,
that conversation...

I've signed up for something to keep me occupied while boyfriend is away. tuition for my students is a must(: take care boyfriend. imy. he is not all that perfect but all those little things he do was the one that capture my heart..

do you still remember the time you fell for me?
yes, i bet you do...

so, yes, i'll be reading his stories to make me fall asleep during his absence. &yes, his stories always make me tears=p haha. &it is very nice one.

till then..
wait for my return...

It has been a long time since i blog. was quite busy&lazy to blog. hehe. This blog entry is going to be a long one. So, if you don't feel like reading, please don't(:

over the week, i did a lot of things. i went over to my neighbour house to learn baking. she is specialized in catering for those weddings&can make very nice desserts! so, i went over&learn how to make fruit tarts!(: it was quite nice&easy to do. i want to learn how to make cupcakes): going to find the courses!


my fruit tarts(:

On Friday(24/7), i head down to NIE to pay my registration fees. it was just a stupid thing for you to go down&just make your payment. i pity those who live quite far from there. So, yes, i confirmed going to NIE(: &i've to go through this e-orientation which contains thousand of files to download&forget to mention videos to listen to. it is all related to my course. but still, it was quite boring, labourious for me to do it just yet. so, i've been shelving the thoughts of doing it till today, after i finish blogging. i've to register my course tomorrow! &i do not know what to teach. oh no. maybe except for maths. let me think.. hmm..

&&i miss my boyfriend. so, on wed(22/7), knowing that i miss him so, he 3G-ed me!(: we talked for awhile with constant disturbance by zul as he was at boyfriend's dorm. switched to normal conversation after 62567481 minutes(: haha! on saturday(25/7), a date out with him to beach road in the wee morning. he is going for brunei): so, he needed to buy some stuffs. accompanying him as he keep forgetting where it is. haha(: had a fun short date with him before rushing off to tuition(:

&&yesterday was loved~ went out for a lunch session with the clans(: finally, after a long while, everyone get toghether&catch-up with one another. we meet up to actually for boyfriend's birthday. but since there was a shortage of time, plans changes(: boyfriend was late. it got me pissed off. but he tried to make up for it, i guess.

Date: 260709
Venue: Popeye@singapore flyer
Time: After 2pm

Driver: Ambrish
Navigator: Nadya
Noise-maker: Mahmudah, Amirah, Neni, Zul and Zaid

dress-up for the day(:

waited for zul&amirah at city hall. decided to take a bus there. but we got lost. haha! cabbed down to singapore flyer instead(: amirah paid for it! haha! the guys free-loader. hehe. ambrish&nadya reached at the same time. neni was lost somewhere inside. waited for her to come before eating. took quite awhile to settle down everyone with zul keep on talking! haha(: &yes, fun filled laughter over lunch!


cab-ride


3 of us(:


them.


my not so nice meal.


desserts


toilet break.

after lunch, which is like 2 hours later=p, we decided to go somewhere to play. haha! knowing that, zul then called up the place as everyone stand up. ambrish was scolding him saying 'from jus now, dont want to call' haha. it was so comical. i just keep on laughing!(: so the 7 of us fit into ambrish 5-seater car. it was quite funny&squashy but it was fun! with all of us do not know how the road is like, we managed to get there safely!(:


haha. zul scared look.


see what ambrish is doing! hahha(:


we decided to have desserts here!


ambrish's car!


inside the car.


the driver.

as soon as we reached, we went to the reserved room for us. we played for about 2 hours. haha. playing Wii- &guitar heroes was funny. haha! with all of us involved in playing, we get to shout as much as we wanted coz it is in a private room, you see. as we were playing alot, limited photo was taken.


i love the chair!


playing around!


singer for the day(: lol.

when we look at our watch, it was already late for the cd guys to book in. we rushed out of the room paying 3bucks per person. quite cheap lar. hehe. then, we realised we have not given the birthday present to boyfriend. *opps* we decided to pit stop at starbucks for awhile. settle down&buy a few drinks.


zul's


opening up his pressie.

noticing that it was already nearing 8pm, ambrish decided to drive us back to JP. after directing ambrish to the expressway, i fall asleep. my gosh. maybe it has been awhile since i had so much fun that i cant keep up with my own energy. haha! walked around with amirah for awhile at JP before heading home(:

thank you for that fun day. another gathering coming up!(:

this week is filled with tuition, camp. going to sign up for driving lesson with ramizah. admission to school is on 11Aug. let me have some fun first. &boyfriend, imy. come back from brunei soon k? though you are only going next week=p

So, i was quite fed-up with everything. my application to NIE has yet to be finalised. &the uncertainty was wad i hated. decided to meet up with my mentor, Ms wong(: for her advise. &yes, Happy birthday MUM(:

was supposed to meet her at 2. but the bus was damn slow thanks to lil' kids finishing school&pushing me from getting the bus. how uncivilised are they? meet up at JP delifrance for lunch&talk. omg. i miss teaching.


the place.


her.


our starter.


LET'S EAT!


omg. this dessert is horrible. eww.


this is heavenly!(:


too sweet for me(:


see the chocolate oozing out? yummy..

so yeah. life. goes. on.